a few years ago when I was 17 I met this boy, who was just that..a boy. He was 16 years old and lived a few miles from me..30miles to be exact. We liked eachother and made an effort to see eachother even though we didn’t have a car, so we rode the bus and metro for a year until I finally got a car.
I began to really fall for this guy, and truly saw him as “The One” but I was still immature, he was still immature..and we were our first relationship..so it wasn’t easy. We broke up a few times, and then for a year..but I guess fate, or God (most likely God) and my sister Cristina who is an angel brought us back together.
Now we are together and I love him a lot, I do seek marriage even though the rate of divorces is so high right now, but I have faith in God..and I ask him to wed me with someone who it will be forever until death do us part..I am very old fashioned in the sense that I do believe marriage is something sacred and it should be forever until death. I don’t mind being a submissive wife in the sense that I’ll respect my husband and “obey” him when of course its for the best!..also I like cleaning and taking care of my man, my husband…I hope that my thoughts and feelings don’t change once I’m married. I hope that my love doesn’t fade, that I change.
I don’t know if every girl seeks or wants to be married, but I do. I can’t imagine living a life without a family. I have my family, and my closest being my sister Cristina & my parents. But someday my parents will leave to paradise and I will have to have my family…My husband and my children which will become my circle.
I think I’ve found my husband in my boyfriend whom I’ve known for 9 years almost..I know his flaws, and his qualities..i know i still have a lot to learn, and that it won’t always be beautiful..but im willing to be with him in summer and rain, in richness and poor..in young and old 
..But what I truly seek in a husband that my boyfriend isn’t yet is to be devoted to our father Jesus Christ. Because in the end, Jesus is truly our everything..and I need someone who believes in God, who will help me in teaching our children about him. I don’t want a fanatic, or someone who “believes” but doesn’t show it with his actions. I just truly want someone who in his heart has a beautiful feeling and belief towards Jesus Christ.
I know that if God is in the center of our marriage then we will survive, we won’t be broken.
So is it weird that I believe in marriage so much? I feel sorta sad for the girls who live with their boyfriends before time, living with them and acting like their married but truly not. I don’t want to cohabit with a boyfriend because i know i wont be happy, ill just be confused because id want to live with someone who is my husband, someone who i feel more stable and secure with..and i dont think i can truly ever feel that way with a boyfriend.
xoxo,
Jackie
what are your thoughts?
