What stops you from going crazy? Amazing GRace..
Being in Mali Africa where my sister lived 2 1/2 years, where she loved, grew and passed away..was a blessing filled with happiness and sadness..what we call bittersweet.
I still cannot understand the WHY, why did God choose my sister for this mission? Why did he allow death to take over? But what makes me glad is knowing that he has her in his hands, in his kingdom, in paradise..Amazing Grace.
It’s been a terrible year..everytime i think about the reality it breaks my heart..tears begin to form in my eyes..and its difficult to sustain the feelings that take over me. Losing a sister is losing a part of oneself, a part that can never be replaced.
You think your sister will ALWAYS be there, no matter what, for as long as can be..you never think or imagine that someday she wont be there..it just doesnt work that way…
I know death is a part of life, atleast now i know in a very REAL WAY..but its still difficult. My sister was my big sister…my best friend..i know-knew i could count on her for ANYTHING..i know she loved ME..unconditionally..i know that whatever advice she gave me it was for my best..i know if we fought..it was just temporary..i know-knew she LOVED ME.
Not having her physically around will be hard..even though its been a year that shes been gone, it doesnt feel that way..i feel her so close..i know shes alive, i know it with all my heart.
I thank Jesus for having him in his hands, for forgiving her and for loving her so much. If we loved her, i cant imagine how much more God loves her…
Cristina, I miss you, everyday ill miss you..but ill be okay..i love you and you will always be my big sister, forever and ever…
and ever………..
